Battling Anxiety
What is a looming threat in our culture today? Anxiety! It’s been said that “Anxiety is the soundtrack humming beneath modern life.” Paul’s instructions to the church at Philippi speak clearly in response (Phil. 4:5-7):
“The Lord is near, do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
And yet, the truth is … many people are more familiar with anxiety than they are with peace. We are better acquainted with a subconscious drive to control the circumstances overwhelming us, than with accepting the unburdening freedom promised in prayer. God promises peace, a supernatural sort of peace that we can’t logically reason. Regardless of our spiritual maturity, stage of life, psychological awareness, we still find ourselves wrestling with anxiety over God’s perfect peace. So why is that?
Today we are living in a post-truth era. Culturally, for many, Biblical truth is no longer defined as absolute. We find it difficult to trust people and ultimately that affects our trust in God. The result is generations of people who find safety in pretending they don’t need God or people… saying… “I can trust myself, guide myself, be enough for myself.” Today, we live in a system that believes maturity comes and grows as we embrace more independence. Yet, Jesus’ teachings are the exact opposite! Rather, He says to be more dependent…to be more dependent on Him!
Jesus once wisely said that we will know a tree by its fruit. So what’s the fruit of self-sufficiency in the life of the modern person? That’s easy! They are overwhelmed! Many people we know today are drowning in their “things”, whatever their “things” are. And those “things” have become all-consuming. You would think that living constantly overwhelmed lives would drive us to prayer at its purest and rawest form. And yet, the tendency for many of us is to pray safe, calculated, quick, duty-filled prayers that insulate us from both disappointment and freedom. At times, we compromise the truth of the Word in our prayers, giving God a way out if things don’t seem to go the way we pray for them. We put “ifs” in our prayers. We take the absolute truth out of the Word and out of our prayers. We lace our prayers with fear and doubt because our trust wavers and doubt in God’s ability and His desire to help us suppresses our prayers. Consciously or unconsciously, we may even try to cloak our selfish, narcissistic desires in some sort of faux compassion. Mixed motives arise, stifling or altering what God has originally intended for us. But as for me, I don’t believe God is nearly as worried about our mixed motives as we may think. I believe he is more concerned with having a true, honest, raw relationship with us. And I believe David ‘s relationship with his Father was such as that. Let’s take a look at David’s writings in the Psalms and begin with these beautiful words written by him:
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside the quiet waters, he refreshes my soul.” (Psalm 23:1-3)
This prayer sounds so serene, so balanced, so perfect. And yet, David wasn’t always that serene (Psalm 140:10):
“May burning coals fall on them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits. never to rise.”
Yikes, sadly, I’ve been there and have even thought things like this …
And again Psalm 103:2,5:
“Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”
Yes, yes, I’ve felt like this many times, especially when things are going the way that I want them. You have to agree. It is easier to trust and believe God when things are going your way. I must admit it, sadly, it’s the way of the flesh, after all.
But what about these heartfelt words:
“I am worn out calling for help; my throat is parched. My eyes fail, looking for my God. “(Psalm 69:3).
I can certainly relate to moments like these, a bit of anger, depression…
Then again, with joy:
“Every day, I will praise you and extol your name, forever and ever” (Psalm 145:2)
Such wonderful emotion exudes in these praises. I love riding high and free in praise of God. But then, later, we find David’s joyous words have now turned to complaints:
“I pour out before him, my complaint; before him, I tell my trouble (Psalm 142:2)
The Psalms reveal a huge variety of motives and emotions. In fact, some of the words in these prayers go directly against the teachings of Jesus and the character of God. What happened to loving your enemies and a God who is rich in love and loyalty and faithfulness? You know, an outside reader might not view David as being so balanced! But didn’t God say David had a heart after Him? So why would these sorts of prayers be included in the Bible? Because they’re honest! They are ragged but real! God is looking for an authentic relationship, not well-designed prayers spoken with perfect motives. Yes, God does consider motives, but when we bring them before Him in prayer, God then has an opportunity to enter in, to realign, to reveal and to refine our thoughts and prayers. They’re not hidden any longer. They’re confessed in His presence. We lay ourselves wholeheartedly before God and He listens. God listened to David in his despair, in his rage and in his joy, and called him a man after His own heart. When it comes to prayer, it’s not performance based. God isn’t grading essays. C.S. Lewis said of prayer “we must lay before Him what is in us, not what ought to be in us.” Honesty with God through prayer reveals truth, hears complaints, reveals and refines motives. In humility, when we present ourselves wholeheartedly before Him, it is then, that He can begin to refine us, sanctify us and empower us with that perfect peace that only God can give.